Got out alive but with scars I can't forget .

Yaaaa ... not feeling too great, emotionally anyways :\ It's amazing how heartless some people can be nowadays .

Why ?
Why can't you look at me ?
I mean really look at me .
And notice
Notice everything that you caused .
The sad, empty eyes .
The emotional scars
Everywhere .
They may not be visible
But they might as well be .
What a mess you created
Out of something that was never perfect .

Wow .. its amazing how something beautiful can be brought out of something so bad . I need to start writing poetry more often again <3 .

Show me all the things that I shouldn't know .

Mmm ... bored .

I feel so unproductive right now haha . No ... that's not the right word ... I FEEL LIKE A LOSER
At home on the long weekend . EFF . If I'm not going anything tomorrow night I will cry .

New favourite band: Pretty Reckless . Kickass <3 .

So I had an interesting day .. Confusing day too ..

I need to start writing lots of poems again, I miss writing them . But I rarely get random inspirational thoughts anymore ! WHAT IS BECOMING OF ME

So hey ... If anyone BESIDES MEGAN :) Actually reads this, you should comment and maybe leave questions ... I like questions =D

Well I dont have much to say, I just felt like writing a blog entry . I'm gonna will myself to get up and go get ready for bed . Goodnight <3 .

Love is evil, spell it backwards, I'll show you .

... is this fantasy real or is all homemade ?And did you call me last night just cause you couldn't get laid ? Ladies and gentlemen, I introduce the selfish machine . <3

Things have been going pretty good, I've been more focused on myself and my friends lately . I have a really weird headache right now, every now and then I'll get a random pain in my head in a random spot..gaaaaah . Ow .

You know what I'm severely lacking ? MONEY :( I need a damn job like now . Uck . Yes, uck .

Well I started school last Wednesday and already, i'm stressed . :( Physics 20 is killing meeeee .
On a happy note, volleyball started :) YAY <3 Yes people I'm a hardcore volleyball player .

I'm exhausted . Goodnight whoever you are .

At least I have some class .

I'm just a little ball of rage .
Lately, everythings just been going wrong for me and I haven't done a thing to cause any of itt. I might as well just keep setting myself up for disappointment.

Some quotes;

Let's play truth or dare. Or maybe just dare because no one knows how to tell the truth anymore.

Don't judge me by what you've seen in me; Remember: What you've seen in me is only what I've chosen to show you.

So I guess you were just one of those people who were supposed to walk into my life, teach me a lesson, then walk out.


Someone save meeee
Seriously lacking as of now:
Confidence
Trust
Something/Someone to fill that space that's been empty for too long.

I drank the poison then I passed the fuck outt.

I went stargazing tonight, alone this time, sadly. But it was worth it, I reminisced, thought a lot, and finally spoke my mind to someone who I should've talked to long time ago. You know, some people just confuse the fuck out of me. Or maybe it's me that makes things confusing, I have no idea.

"...stay away from my friends, cause I need them to carry me. When it's over I'll count back from ten, and you can listen to something that you've never heard before. But you don't know what it's like to wake up in the middle of the night, scaring the thought of kissing razors.."
<3

I need a boyfriend. :(

Back to reality and what you're about,.

I really hate people who use others/lie to them. Comment if you agree.

Oh how I love angry music <3.

Soo I wrote a poem the other night when I was at camp, let me know what you think:

Keep me close to you and bury me in your backyard.

We both know you can't let go of me that easily.

The stars remind you of my eyes,

Looking straight into yours.

You look so lovely when you're guilty.

Keep your conscience open so I can take a look.

My distant cries will carry through your open window.

I'll drie you mad,

Til you dig up my bones just to be with me once more.

What a perfect ending.

Now that I've thought about it ...

I may have made the wrong impression yesterday. I'm not some teenager who's down on herself all the time, really, I'm not. I just have my ups and downs. Typical, I know.

I went stargazing last night with one of my best friends and reminisced about anything and everything

It made me realize how much I don't want things to change.

Yes I'm sadly one of those people that are scared of change. Sigh.

I hope people are reading this, just so I can reassure myself that someone's listening. <3

Bye for now.