I drank the poison then I passed the fuck outt.

I went stargazing tonight, alone this time, sadly. But it was worth it, I reminisced, thought a lot, and finally spoke my mind to someone who I should've talked to long time ago. You know, some people just confuse the fuck out of me. Or maybe it's me that makes things confusing, I have no idea.

"...stay away from my friends, cause I need them to carry me. When it's over I'll count back from ten, and you can listen to something that you've never heard before. But you don't know what it's like to wake up in the middle of the night, scaring the thought of kissing razors.."
<3

I need a boyfriend. :(

Back to reality and what you're about,.

I really hate people who use others/lie to them. Comment if you agree.

Oh how I love angry music <3.

Soo I wrote a poem the other night when I was at camp, let me know what you think:

Keep me close to you and bury me in your backyard.

We both know you can't let go of me that easily.

The stars remind you of my eyes,

Looking straight into yours.

You look so lovely when you're guilty.

Keep your conscience open so I can take a look.

My distant cries will carry through your open window.

I'll drie you mad,

Til you dig up my bones just to be with me once more.

What a perfect ending.

Now that I've thought about it ...

I may have made the wrong impression yesterday. I'm not some teenager who's down on herself all the time, really, I'm not. I just have my ups and downs. Typical, I know.

I went stargazing last night with one of my best friends and reminisced about anything and everything

It made me realize how much I don't want things to change.

Yes I'm sadly one of those people that are scared of change. Sigh.

I hope people are reading this, just so I can reassure myself that someone's listening. <3

Bye for now.

Hii.

I'm Shaylene.
Why did I make one of these?
Well...I don't know. That's how things are these days. I don't have a fucking clue about anything anymore.
I'm so easily influenced by others that it messes me right up.

I'm lacking things. Like trust. And confidence.
I'm feeling down right now..
I want to fall sleep in a blanket of water.

I'm full of opinions so don't disrespect me.